Friendship

The unspoken contract between you and another person, to be there for them when they don’t even realise that they need you.

Losing your best friend to the land of hobbits and very large men slapping their thighs makes you realise how lucky you are to have made that connection with someone. I feel incredibly lucky to have found my Christina Yang. Not many people are lucky enough to have found that person.

You don’t actually realise how much you need them until they’re gone.

There are a number of ways of dealing with this. The normal response would be to dust yourself off and carry on with life.

My way of coping however was completely different. I didn’t even realise I was doing it until said friend was making her return either.

I shut myself away and didn’t really have much of a social life when she left. Not that I blame her in the slightest. I think I just lost my way.

That realisation that someone could have such an impact on my mood, way of life and attitude, that wasn’t either a member of my family or the man that I love, wasn’t something I saw coming. Especially considering I hadn’t even noticed that there had been a change within me.

I guess what I’ve learnt from this is that you should keep those whom you chose to spend most of your time with close.

You may think that you’ll be able to survive without them if they go anywhere and that it would be ridiculous to think that your world would fall apart without them, but you just never know. And don’t take advantage of the time that you can spend with them because if they somehow manage to find themselves on the other side of the world, you might just fall apart like I did.