Day 9

Despite having anxiety and letting stress get the better of me most of the time, at the moment, I keep just adding to my plate.

This weekend felt pretty hectic with a hair appointment Saturday before dinner with friends, then shopping on Sunday morning, my parents over in the afternoon, gift wrapping and over time for work in the evening! Usually because I didn't actually get all I wanted to get done (in this instance cooking a lasagne and making gingerbread) I get super stressed out and any, but more than anything I feel super chilled out.

Tonight I've walked 20 minutes to get to my car after work, done a food shop, cooked a lasagne, done more over time and now I'm here writing another blog post. I kinda wanted to get more wrapping done, but I just don't have enough time and for the first time in ages, I feel completely fine about it.

Maybe it's just I'm used to only getting so much done, or I just feel like I'm being more productive with my time or maybe it's because I'm starting to balance everything better and making time to be social instead of just sitting around at home.. Either way, it's a big win for me. Not feeling stressed and not getting snappy because I'm stressed is a mindset that I wanna keep for as long as possible.

I'm going to try my best not to over think it and do that thing I do normally and worry that it's going to come back. Which then in turn makes it come back, that's the vicious circle that exists as part of my anxiety 'it will come back, you know it will and this time it'll be even worse'. If I think like that then of course it will. If this time I just try and plod along and carry on as I am then I can manage it all much better.

And that's the tea.