Finding Strength at Your Weakest

Feelings are hard. That’s why most of us build up walls against them, because almost all all of us have been through the rough side of it. Once you’ve been through heartbreak, whether it come from a relationship, family or friendship breakdown, it leads to you no longer trusting your feelings and never wanting to put yourself in a position where that might happen again.

It’s a rollercoaster moving on from it. Especially when the feeling of love was so strong, that you were blind to the idea of them not being in your life. Moving on isn’t an option just yet, despite all that’s been said and down since it ended. Then all of a sudden, you’re so mad that you hate them with every ounce of your being, to the point you can feel your blood boiling. But by the end of it, you’re crying because you’ve said something that you regret, that you can’t come back from and everything is ruined.

If it’s just one emotion you have to handle, then it’s not so bad because you can learn to manage it and move forward. When your feelings trick you into thinking you’re okay and then slam you with a tsunami of sadness, that’s when it becomes exhausting. It makes you feel crazy because you can’t get your emotions in check. You talk to friends and family about it how it’s made you feel. No matter how hard their advice and words of wisdom hits the nail on the head, it only makes you feel better for a moment. No matter how many plans you make, you’re still going to dwell on how you’re feeling, beat yourself up and put yourself down when you’re on your own again. Now, despite me saying that we only listen in the moment to the help of others, all of this is normal. When a person was such a huge part of your life, adjusting to them not being in it will take time. Not to be cliche because that’s not who I am, but time truly does heal all wounds. Instead of being sad, you find strength you didn’t know you had. You start feeling yourself again, get back to your own routine and remember that you’re fine on your own/without that person. Take from the situation lessons that you can use going forward, but don’t put the hurt on someone else in the future. Let it build you up to be a stronger and resilient person, not a weaker one.